just got home from work.. after our shift we (jackie, me, donnie) went straight to the pantry to eat. we're having so much fun lately (where the hell is fria?) we shared some food like what we're fond of doing lately.. we laugh at almost everything. like during our break when we were at the 8th floor and donnie had to do some crap, jackie and i followed her and i acted as if i was a maniac then i pushed jackie on the wall and moaned out loud. haha!

we're suppose to smoke on the ground flr but it was raining so hard that we had to wait until it stop. we went to 8th flr instead and spent a couple of minutes there. i was teasing the both of them bec they always make a vow to stop smoking but they always end up saying "let's just start tomorrow.." lolz.. oh well, such a hard habit to break..

it's a good thing i have gotten a set of friends for a short span of time i'm there. at least i still find reasons to stay..

but honestly, i have to admit that i miss my old life. i miss the things that i used to do.. and i miss me.. sometimes i feel like i'm no longer who i am now. although there had been changes in me and in my life that i liked, and though it's true that people do change, i still believe that in one way or another a part of you just know who you really are. we might change our views, beliefs, see things in a quite different way.. but those could never sum up to the person you are now. there are times when a friend would say you've already changed, but you'd surely say "i'm still the person you used to know.." oftentimes you find yourself saying "hey, i've changed.." but it's only when the ocassion calls for it. there are some things you couldn't just let go of....

well, what the hell am i saying here? lolz.. maybe it has something to do with the rain.. oh yea, summer has passed but i wasn't able to enjoy it. fuck! anyway, just wanna share this song to all of ya.. it just makes me feel good!

Both Sides Now

Rows and flows of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons everywhere,
I've looked at clouds that way.

But now they only block the sun,
They rain and snow on everyone
So many things I would have done,
But clouds got in my way.

I've looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down and still somehow
It's cloud's illusions I recall
I really don't know clouds at all

Moons and Junes and ferris wheels,
The dizzy dancing way that you feel
As every fairy tale comes real,
I've looked at love that way.

But now it's just another show,
You leave 'em laughing when you go
And if you care, don't let them know,
Don't give yourself away.

I've looked at love from both sides now
From give and take and still somehow
It's love's illusions I recall
I really don't know love at all

Tears and fears and feeling proud,
To say "I love you" right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds,
I've looked at life that way.

Oh but now old friends they're acting strange,
They shake their heads, they say I've changed
Well something's lost, but something's gained
In living every day.

I've looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all

I've looked at life from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all