Few days ago, I signed up in multiply and posted this entry yesterday. But I figured why not put it in here as well. I just tried multiply since it has more features but I guess I'd still be using tblog since this is where I started. So there.. to tBloggers, friends, lurkers, everyone.. Happy New Year guys! Of course this year, like the others, will have its share of joy, sorrow, loss, laughters and tears. Still, have a great and fantastic one! :)

Today's the last day of the year. How time flies.. I don't actually look forward to the coming year, instead i'm thrilled in a way. Thoughts of commiting the same mistakes in the past and repeatedly doing things i should've completely gotten over with frighten me. Nevertheless, this has been a wonderful year for me. Of course there are some regrets. But it's not that it wouldn't left me with something I can smile about and be thankful for. Blessings overflowed. I've got accomplishments, one thing I could think of is that I got regularized in work for the first time. I got promoted and recognized, something that made me regain my esteem and convidence that I can do so much more. I've laughed. I've cried. I've loved and been loved and cared for in return. I realized a lot of things about myself and life in general and I've seen the real world. I realized that sometimes no matter how much you've given it might not be enough. It's also true that no matter how hurt you are, the world wouldn't stop and cry with you. But there's nothing wrong with taking a moment, sometimes you really have to hide and live in your so-called world. We always say life is often unfair, but I came to realize that it was me who's being unfair to it. I've been too easy on myself. I always live life on the edge never thinking about my every action's outcome. That's always been my problem, dealing with myself. There's so much I wanna do in life but sometimes I feel that i could never make it happen, it's like I'm stuck in a moment i couldn't get out of (sounds familiar, huh?)

Anyhoo, I'm trying to accept my fate. If this is really it (which I hope not) I'm learning to love the things I do and the job I have. I just have to think there are other people whose lives are more miserable than mine. Or maybe what matters is how you look at it. Being in the company I'm currently at had me gained a lot of friends as well. Looking back, I would have to say I'm still soul searching. I know it's gonna be a continuous process. It might be a long winding road and not having a clearer vision of the future can be downright scary. But I'm getting there. Somehow I get to deal with myself. I don't easily get depressed and I have lessen all the whining. It's true that there are things that are more important than anything else. Happiness that you wouldn't get from any material thing.. Love of family, friends, and the special feeling of having someone to love. As per The Biscuit, "If you think back and replay your year, and if it doesn't bring you tears- of either joy or sadness- consider the year wasted." Guess I don't have to consider mine wasted...