the rain to the wind said,
"you push and i'll pelt."
they so smote the garden bed
that the flowers actually knelt,
and lay lodged-though not dead.
i know how the flowers felt.

~Robert Frost


i can't seem to organize my thoughts as of the moment. there's just a strong, overwhelming emotion that suddenly embraced me. such strong there couldn't be any word to describe it. hopefully, i can manage to talk about it some other time.. meanwhile, i'd like to share something about goodbyes from the book 'praying our goodbyes' by joyce rupp.. hence, the signifanct goodbyes i'm currently dealing with..

The Ache of Particular Goodbyes

"Goodbyes are a part of every single day. Sometimes we choose them, and sometimes they choose us. Usually they are small, not so significant losses that do not pain us very much, but at times they are deep, powerful, wounding experiences that trail around our hearts and pain inside of us for years.

What is a goodbye? It is an empty place in us. It is any situation in which there is some kind of loss, some incompleteness, when a space is created in us that cries out to be filled. Goodbyes are any of those times when we find ourselves without a someone or a something that has given our life meaning and value, when a dimension of our life seems to be out of place or unfulfilled. Goodbyes are all of those experiences that leave us with a hollow feeling someplace deep inside."

james
ramil
janet
jet
vanessa

**this is not the end. rather, just a beginning of a new chapter. and those fond memories shared will keep our hearts company forever..

looking forward to seeing you all again

you will be surely missed..