yep! it's my birthday today. but it seems like an ordinary day. hmm.. dunno what i should really be feeling. but if there's one thing i've realized, that is i don't have much friends in life. only few people remembered my birthday, and those friends i wasn't expecting to forget this day actually did. still, a big thanks to those who greeted me; thru sms/email/phone/friendste r/and of course physically (you know who you are)

these are the times when you would realize the value of your friends. or should i say, the importance of having true friends. i know for a fact that i've never been such a good friend to my friends. neither am i good at keeping in touch.. and i'm guilty of that. i'm aware how i missed most of the chances of having my relationships with people deepen. guess that also explains why i'm starting to go out more often and all that.

oh, and you know what it's kinda funny when you tell yourself you're not expecting something, yet at the end of the day you'd get disappointed if it didn't happen. have you ever felt that? just like when i thought someone might be coming and when i called up this evening, i was like 'ok, so she's not gonna show up' lol

anyway, surprisingly i received an sms from a friend i met online. then i just begun to open up to him and told him this day just seems so ordinary. and he told me things that made me feel special and loved. he is, btw, of almost same age as my father's. it's actually a good thing sometimes to have a conversation with someone ahead of you and to tell you bluntly i enjoy talking to him. he's like my confidant. we talk about anything, mostly about life, and i learn alot from him. also, two days before my birthday i got an off-line msg in ym from a long-lost friend i haven't seen nor talked to for like two years. it wasn't a bday greeting though, but what a surprise! :)

hmm.. what else? umm, i cried on my birthday! haha.. while i was taking a bath this evening. Now, isn't that pathetic? LOL don't know why.. nostalgia? or just being emotional since it's my bday.. whatever. all i know is that i better sleep now coz i have an exam at 9 o'clock tom. Toodles!